Because I most definitely am NOT!
I don’t really know what the word for what I’m feeling would be.
“Left behind”, perhaps? I mean, that’s two words, but who really gives a shit.
I guess I should explain where I’m coming from with this. Last Friday, a very good friend of mine got engaged to her boyfriend of three years. A few months ago, another good friend of mine and her boyfriend got engaged. And, of course, Facebook friends have been getting married/engaged left and right over the past couple months.
Could it possibly be bothering me because I’m newly single? I would think that’s a definite possibility. I can’t go a day without thinking about my ex-boyfriend while friends are planning weddings with the men they want to spend the rest of their lives with. I’m worrying about if I’m ever going to find “The One” while they’re worrying about who to seat together at the wedding reception.
You get the picture.
Like I said, I’m not bitter. I couldn’t be happier for my friends who have found love and the person they want to share their lives with. I just start to wonder if it’ll happen for me someday. I haven’t had much luck in the relationship department. I’ve only had two serious boyfriends. Both were long-term (one for three years, the other for two), but for some reason those relationships just weren’t meant to work out. I’ll assume the reason is because I haven’t met the man I’m supposed to be with yet. Those relationships were just practice for the “real deal”. That’s what I’ll keep telling myself, at least.
Yeah, I know…I’m only 24. I’m still young and “shouldn’t be worrying about that kind of stuff.” Easier said than done, my friends. Watching the people around you having successful relationships while yours crumbles is difficult to deal with…and it makes you think crazy thoughts. Irrational, crazy thoughts.
Makes you think about calling up your most recent ex-boyfriend and telling him how much you miss him and can’t stop thinking about him and want him back, even though you know things will never work. You know…just an example.
On that note, how about some Michael Bublé? Perfect song for the moment…
It will happen...it'll happen when you aren't looking for it, or expecting it. I promise.
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